Take off your shoes, please.

The D.Va

How did the story get around?

I wonder.

Whatever.

Shhh. Watching movie online. Chat later.


The curse is broken.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I'm feeling fat.

AGAIN!

It's a never ending thing, I reckon.

Just give me those laxatives, and I'll be fine. No. I'll feel better. But, not really fine.

Interim II later. Let's just all not do storyboard. No point doing it if the shots are not planned yet. I know I make sense. Thank you.

hah...

It's really nice to hear your voice.


I miss you, should you know.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

The shoot was fine. We wasted a lot of time looking for the supervisor. A LOT of time, mind you. Instead of starting at the stipulated time, we ended up starting an hour later. Gawd. Do you know how precious every single second is in production? We could have done so much more with those lost time.

Fire drill. Fire evacuation exercise in the evening. Whatever for? Kong and I were the trend setters. We sat in the shade, while the others were sitting under the scorching, hot sun. And, then, everyone followed suit. Under the shade, people. UNDER THE SHADE. We shall start another trend, Kong.

hah...

A friend of mine was asking me to teach her some Malay phrases. And, so, I did. So, I told her datang is come in Malay. Then, she went, "aku datang, aku datang..." The Malay peeps who are reading this, try translating it, literally. If you still don't understand, then, forget it.

heee...

They may give me a call everyday. They may leave me sweet messages every night. They may say that I'm all that they ever want. They may say that they will treat me good.

I ignore all of that.

Why?

Because, they are not you.

They are just NOT YOU.

I miss you so.

Maybe, you're oblivious. Maybe, you're just ignorant.


I miss you, should you know.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I was really annoyed.

I was pissed, too.

But, I don;t know the real reason why.

This month's mood swings are really bad, eyy?

Leena and I have a lot to rant. We can have our own ranting column in the papers, or magazine.

hah...

Morning shoot later. I hate morning shoots. Get up early just for it. Deprive me of my beauty sleep. Annoying~. ( syaf's way... )


I miss you, should you know.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Why is it that I long for your touch?
Why is it that I want your kisses?
Why is it that I need your embrace?
Why is it that I smell you everywhere I go?
Why is it that I’m missing you this much?

You’ve cast a spell on me.

Why does it seem like you don’t care?
Why does it seem like it doesn’t interest you?
Why does it seem like I’m the only one trying to make this work?
Why does it seem like you’ve changed?

Where are all the long phone calls?
Where are all the late nights?
Where are all the sweet nothings?
Where are all the times when it seems like there’s only us?

You want to take it slow. I want to take it slow.
If this is what taking it slow means, it is definitely not what I was anticipating.


I miss you, should you know.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

What an annoying day it was. Never annoy a lady when she is in her nastiest mood.

You've been very cold. Maybe, you don't realise. Or, it could be that you don't even care. Things don't have to be this way.

I miss you, if you should know. I just don't want to let you know.

Take a bow by Madonna. Been listening to it the whole night. Love the lyrics.

Take A Bow
Take a bow, the night is over
This masquerade is getting older
Lights are low, the curtains down
There's no one here
[There's no one here, there's no one in the crowd]
Say your lines but do you feel them
Do you mean what you say when there's no one around [no one around]
Watching you, watching me, one lonely star
[One lonely star you don't know who you are]

Chorus:

I've always been in love with you [always with you]
I guess you've always known it's true [you know it's true]
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

Make them laugh, it comes so easy
When you get to the part
Where you're breaking my heart [breaking my heart]
Hide behind your smile, all the world loves a clown
[Just make 'em smile the whole world loves a clown]
Wish you well, I cannot stay
You deserve an award for the role that you played [role that you played]
No more masquerade, you're one lonely star
[One lonely star and you don't know who you are]

(chorus, repeat)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye

All the world is a stage [world is a stage]
And everyone has their part [has their part]
But how was I to know which way the story'd go
How was I to know you'd break
[You'd break, you'd break, you'd break]
You'd break my heart

I've always been in love with you
[I've always been in love with you]
Guess you've always known
You took my love for granted, why oh why
The show is over, say good-bye

(chorus)

Say good-bye [bye bye], say good-bye
Say good-bye


I miss you, should you know.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I'm seriously PMS-ing.

I need my antidote.

CHOCOLATES.

Of any kind.

White chocolate, or mints would be the best.

Somebody, please.

I NEED MY ANTIDOTE.


Mood swings are a beeech.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Memorable.

That is just the word to describe my 19th.

Only the three of us.

Fyde. Leena. Ain.

... and he said, there more to birthdays than just presents. It's a day of reflecting, cherishing, appreciating.... realizing, and another excuse to go party.

hah...

It would be better if he was there.

It would be different if Embah and Maknek were still around.


Fly me to Brisbane.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

It was a day of stupidity.

We were at this junction, waiting for the green man to appear. My sister and I were talking about The Contender Asia and so, we decided to do some of the Wai Khru movements. She was doing Sean Wrights' fireball, and I was doing Zachs' bow and arrow. So, as I was finishing that bow and arrow action, I there was this pavement, and I actually slipped. GAWD!!! Thank goodness I didn't actually fall flat on my butt.

We were laughing all the way to La Selle, where I met Alif, Shagg, and Syaf.

I'M EXPECTING MY BELATED BIRTHDAY PRESENT, SYAF.

heh...


Fly me to Brisbane.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

In a matter of days...

I'll be celebrating my 19th.

I'll be seeing my Aunt, who's coming back from Malaysia.

I'll be going back to school.

I'll be having a belated birthday lunch, or dinner, with my dearest friend, Kong.

I'll be having a lot of teh peng/kopi peng breaks with Kong, and hopefully Nic-kee.

I'll be this.. I'll be that...

Whatever.


Fly me to Brisbane.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

It has been a fabulous week.

Fantastic seven days.

Sunday was nice.
Monday was classy.
Tuesday was intelligently interesting.
Wednesday was the first.
minus thursday.
Friday was just romantic.
Saturday was indescribable.


Fly me to Brisbane.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

The Contender Asia Finale

A night of great fights.
A night of eye candies.

Everything was just AMAZING.

Zidov.
Gawd. He's HAWT!!!

John Wayne Parr.
He's sexy.
REALLY SEXAY.

I want to learn the art of Muay Thai. Especially, Wai Khru.

Imagine dating the both of them at one go.

heeee.

Behave, Ain, behave.

No more late nights.
No more eye gazes.
No more touches.
No more of your scent.
No more of these for the next eight months.

Unless, I'll be there in July, or August.

I'm going to miss you.
I really will.

They say, that, distance makes the heart grows fonder.

It will, to me.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Michael Johns is voted out. What the hell are Americans doing?

Michael Johns??!!

I'm speechless.

Whatever.

The Contender Asia Finale, later. Singapore Indoor Stadium.

Yay!

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

April 13th.

April 13th.

April 13th.

April 13th.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

It just feels right.

It's not a one week thing.

NOT a one week thing.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Mr Hadi.
You inspired me to do this piece.

Hidup...
Kehidupan...
Bak roda yang berputar tiada henti
Penyebab hari-hari yang porak-peranda

Ada kalanya di atas
Ada kalanya di bawah

Pabila di atas
Bagaikan di awang-awangan
Bagaikan di langit ketujuh
Kesenangan yang tiada akhirnya
Keghairahan yang tiada kurang giurnya
Insan-insan alpa mengisi ruang kesenangan
Tiadakah kau tahu ia semuanya hanya sementara?

Ianya hanya sementara.

Ketika di bawah
Terasa seperti pohon-pohon yang tumbang
Ledakan api kemarahan yang membuak-buak
Perasaan putus asa menguasai diri
Hidup ini bagaikan tiada erti
Hilang segala makna
Namun, ianya hanya sementara

SEMENTARA

Liku-liku kehidupan mendewasakan kita
Membuka mata kepada keindahan dan kejelekan hidup
Tika keresahan
Tika kekosotan
Janganlah kau tunduk pada godaan putus asa

Walau apapun
Hidup harus diteruskan
Harungilah cabaran hidup dengan hati dan minda yang terbuka

Cekalkan hati
Kuatkanlah semangat
Engkau berdaya kuasai jalan cerita hidupmu.

And this piece.
Is just what I feel.

Cinta.
cinta.
CINTA.
Apakah ertinya cinta?

Kekata yang sentiasa diungkapkan
Di kala ditenggelami gelombang perasaan
Manakala insan-insan yang daif dibiarkan hanyut
Tanpa mengenali erti kekata cinta

Dalam masyarakat yang majmuk ini
Cinta dilihat bagaikan sesuatu yang remeh
Kekata cinta ini digunakan untuk memuaskan nafsu zahir
Tidakkah cinta seharusnya menggambarkan keindahan batin?

Kekata cinta ini amat merunsingkan
Adakah cinta sejati wujud di dunia yang fana ini?
Mungkin, iya
Mungkin, tidak

Apakah erti sebenar cinta?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

She's gone. For good. March 28, 2008.

28 Mac 2008
Hari yang menyaksikan sebutir permata yang gugur
Seorang wanita...
Isteri...
Bonda...
Ninda...
yang amat dihargai..
Disayangi...
Dihormati...
Disanjungi...

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Setiap detik yang diluangkan bersama
Hingga ke detik-detik yang terakhir
Akan tetap mekar di sanubari ini

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Namun
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Semoga rohmu dicucuri rahmat

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Hear The Journalists Scream.

The Scandal Hunters.

The Past Which Moulds The Present.

I Am The Only D.va Around.