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I came across laxative while researching on bulimia nervosa, the topic that I plan to use for ComdA. I've always known the effects that laxatives may have on one. But, what I found out now, it just opened up my eyes, and scared me, somehow.

Laxative Abuse

Laxative abuse is potentially serious since it can lead to intestinal paralysis,Irritable Bowel Syndrome (IBS), pancreatitis, renal failure, and other problems.

Laxative gut

Physicians generally warn against the chronic use of stimulant laxatives due to concern that chronic use causes the colonic tissues to get worn out over time and not be able to expel feces due to long term overstimulation. The evidence for this was never too strong, and it was always unclear whether the elongated and poorly moving colon of a patient with chronic constipation was a result of or was just a cause for patients' use of stimulant laxatives. A common finding in patients who have used stimulant laxatives is a brown pigment deposited in the intestinal tissue, known as Melanosis coli.

Eating Disorders

Laxatives are often used by people with an eating disorder. In many cases of bulimia nervosa the patient will abuse laxatives in an attempt to purge themselves of food in the intestines before it becomes digested. Frequently, patients with eating disorders had chronic digestive problems in childhood and found laxatives an effective treatment. The laxative use later may substitute of more appropriate treatment such as a better diet. Treatment of patients with eating disorders and gastrointestinal illnesses can be challenging.

Taken from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Laxative

Yes, I was ignorant. In fact, I still am. I'm just thinking, maybe, I really am killing myself, slowly, and tenderly. I know I should stop taking laxatives. But, I just can't. It's not as if I don't want to.

What's the worst that could happen? Most to most, I'd just have a shorter life span.

It's easy for you to say, "Ain, you need counselling. Go for one. It helps."

Would it help, if I don't help myself? Why would I want to waste time, money, and effort if I don't want to help myself? And all of you wouldn't understand. Because, you're NOT in my shoes.

Living with an eating disorder isn't easy. It's tiring. It's painful. It just, plainly SUCKS. Not only is it physically tiring, it's more tiring, emotionally.

FUCK STICK THIN MODELS.


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