Take off your shoes, please.

The D.Va

I had a very, very weird dream.

Which I am still trying to register.


...

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.







Yes. We were skyping again. And he was trying to seduce me with that suit.

ahah..


Skype some more.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

He replied to my text, which is usually seldom.

And that made my day.

I'm grinning from ear to ear, and I'm squinting my eyes so tightly that it's as small as Fiona's.


Aww. You made my day.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Skype decided to be a bitch today.

NO webcam session.

I miss my boyfriend.

Gawd.

I miss him so much.


Missing my FASHIONtard.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I hate it when guys have their mood swings.

It is so much more unpredictable than girls.

SERIOUSLY.

I'm gonna invent a 'He's Having A Mood Swing' detector.


Annoying.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

http://tyrashow.warnerbros.com/2009/02/penises_a_look_at_every_angle.php

The cab driver really sounded like Anjas.


Fly Me To La-La-Land.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

We skyped yet again.

But shorter, cuz his bloody school's internet connection shuts off at 2pm local time. 11 pm on his side.

And he still played with those effects. He tried to be Rorschach, Dr Manhattan, d(o.o)b, green gooey monster.

ahah.

It is official.

I MISS HIM A LOT.

AND I LURVE HIM. MUCHIE. MUCHIE.


Skype-ness.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I was reading through the past convos dat I had.

On Adium.

Oh, how I miss those nights.


Never happened.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Hi.

I'm FUCKING MAD cuz Alexis Grace is out, and the judges decided NOT to save her.

I HATE YOU JUDGES!

I sound childish. SO WHAT?!?!?!


MAD-ified.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

The whole thing about Watchmen is just fucking cheesy.

What is interesting to me, personally, is the character development. The characters are really interesting, and very well developed. The backstory of each character is so well developed that I pretty much emphatised with them, and whatever that they're going through.

Favourite character? Rorschach.

That man has a certain charm, and charisma about him. He's dark, and sexy. His voice growly, and husky. And I totally identify with him.

"Never compromise even in the face of armageddon."

I totally agree with this, Rorschach. Totally.

I just don't understand how a superhero movie can be this cheesy. Even the sex scenes were cheesy. Like, hello? I don't think anyone was turned on by the kissing, nor the sex scenes.

Basically the whole movie revolves around one thing. How life is a big joke. It's pretty smart how they revelate this. Thinking about it, well life really seemed like a big joke.

Human having sex with animals.

Human slaughtering animals in the most vicious ways.

Domestic violence.

Women burnt due to insufficient dowry.

Man destructing the world in whatever ways possible.

Nuclear weapons.

Terrorism.

Destructing this world, this Earth that we're living in. It's all a fucking BIG JOKE. Why destroy all these? All these that can be beautiful? All these that has been a part of our lives for decades?

We're creating this joke upon ourselves.

Life is a joke.

And, it really is.


What a joke.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Skyping with Mr FASHIONtard was funny.

It was all funny.

We are the Skype noobs.

ahah..

W.A.D.E.V.A.


SkypeNOOBS.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Yesterday's JFL was AWESUMM!

Playing along three of the most talented people I know. It's such an honour.



Here's two women, whom I believe is the most true, and real to themselves. To the fans. To the music. Everything about them is amazing. And yes, I lurve them.

PINK.











This woman is so AWESUMM. Her boldness is so out of the world. She can rawk your balls when she sings live. And her hairstyles, especially the short ones are HAWT!


ALICIA KEYS.

















This lady is so talented. Her voice is magical. She speaks up for whatever she believes in. She's bold, too. Yes, she's gained a little bit of weight. But who cares when you're as beautiful as her?

heh...

I lurve both women.

YAYness!


Alicia Keys. Alicia Moore.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

It was a moment of panic & frenzy.

My iPod just wouldn't work. And even when I unlock it, it still had that lock icon on the screen. My lappy couldn't sense my iPod.

I just went berserk. And crazy. And frenzy. And panic.

In that situation, I read the manual.

In that situation, I MISread the manual.

And I thought it really was gone. Finished.

You can't blame me. It's a gift from my boyfriend. It means a lot to me ok. And I treasure it. And I take very good care of it. Even more care then I give to my hair. That's how much I care for this iPod of mine.

Ok. I need to try not to panic when times like these come by. I wouldn't think straight. I wouldn't do anything right.

Ain needs to maintain.

Maintain.

Maintain.

My iPod is saved. I'm just happy it's still alive.

IT'S STILL ALIVE.


I lurve my mini.Aingel.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

LIAR. LIAR. LIAR.

You're just a fucking liar.


L.I.A.R.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.



Hello. She's one of my idols. Miss Beyonce Knowles. She's got it all. Looks. Body. Talent. I owe it to her that I came to a realisation that curves are hawt.

I'm so in lurve with Beyonce right now.












Beyonce is so hawt.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Was in the train, on the way home.

I stood near the door. Beside me was this man. In his mid 20s. And I'm sure he's not local.

And so, the train was really crowded. I had to stand somewhat really close to him.

I was wearing this green beachy wear. Which was kinda low. I think you know which top I'm talking about. And so, I stood pretty close to him, so at times we had some contact. And then, I felt something 'standing'. I moved my eyes to that particular place, and I saw it, 'up'.

Ok, so I pretended not to see. I kept looking front. Then, suddenly, he let out this huge, heavy breath. Right at my left ear. And his eyes were all steamy, and stuff.

G.A.W.D. IT WAS UTTER GROSSNESS.

So fucking gross.

I think if there's nobody around, he'll wank to himself, or I might even get raped.

The way he looked at me, it was as if he'd wallop me any time.

FUCKING GROSS.


Behave yourself!

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Halo
by Beyonce Knowles

Remember those walls I built
Well, baby they're tumbling down
And they didn't even put up a fight
They didn't even make up a sound

I found a way to let you in
But I never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now

It's like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
It's the risk that I'm takin'
I ain't never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkest night
You're the only one that I want
Think I'm addicted to your light

I swore I'd never fall again
But this don't even feel like falling
Gravity can't forget
To pull me back to the ground again

Feels like I've been awakened
Every rule I had you breakin'
The risk that I'm takin'
I'm never gonna shut you out

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
Halo, halo

Everywhere I'm looking now
I'm surrounded by your embrace
Baby I can see your halo
You know you're my saving grace

You're everything I need and more
It's written all over your face
Baby I can feel your halo
Pray it won't fade away

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo

I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo
I can feel your halo halo halo
I can see your halo halo halo


I can feel you halo, baby.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Di keheningan malam, telefonku berdering. Panggilan telefon dari si dia. Aku pun menjawabnya. Semuanya berjalan dengan lancar, sehingga aku bertanyakan tentang sesuatu.

Cerita latarnya...

Pada suatu hari, si dia telah bertanyakan padaku, jikalau aku ingin mengikutinya ke Pulau Cina pada bulan Jun nanti. Beliau akan membayarkan segalanya. Aku tidak memberitahu jawapan yang tetap. Selang beberapa hari, aku keluar bersama seorang rakan aku ni. Dia kata teman lelaki aku ni telah bertanyakan kepadanya jikalau dia ingin mengikut kami ke Pulau Cina bulan Jun nanti. Aku amat terperanjat. Tidakku sangka beliau akan mengajak teman aku sekali.

Ok. Kembali ke panggilan telefon semalam.

Jadi aku telah bertanyakan beliau soalan berkaitan dengan cerita latar tu.

Dia: Bukan apa. I takut kalau-kalau u bosan nanti di sana. Sebab ada masanya nanti I perlu hadirkan diri di tempat-tempat yang.. formal..

Ain: Apa yang membuat u fikir I tak boleh hiburkan diri I sendiri? I memang dah biasa pun hiburkan diri I sendiri. Ouh. Jadi sekarang u ingat I ni tk boleh hidup sorang uh nie?

Dia: Apa masalah you sekarang ni uh? I cuma tanya dia jadi u tak bosan di sana pe. Apa masalah u sekarang i tanya dia? (bila ditanyakan dalam bhs inggeris, ia lebih kasar lar kan..)

Ain: Sejak bila I kata I ada masalah dengan u tanya dia? I tiada masalah dengan itu. I cuma tanya u je pe.. kenapa you nak kene tanya dia. Asal you nak kene marah-marah?

Dia: Dia kawan you pe. Apa masalah u sekarang ni?

Ok. Aku cam betul-betul frust. Macam dalam setiap perkara si dia ni mesti nak kene ajak kawan aku ni. Like hello? Dah terpaut pe?

Kekadang aku rasa macam teman lelaki aku ni impossible.

Aku tak tahu uh. Aku geram uh. Tiada masa yang diluangkan bersama. Hanya kita berdua.

Aku malas nak bergaduh sebab dia ni jauh sekarang ni. Gaduh-gaduh ni semua susah uh.

Aku penat uh.

Senang-senang you putus dengan I. Pergi sana dengan kawan I tu larr.

I'm tired. I'm fucking tired. Like FUCKING FUCKING TIRED.

But, I lurve you.


-

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Hear The Journalists Scream.

The Scandal Hunters.

The Past Which Moulds The Present.

I Am The Only D.va Around.