Take off your shoes, please.

The D.Va

Last night, I dreamt that I have a 9mm something-like-tumour in my tummy.

It scares da shit out of me.

I cried when I woke.

Wad if...


9mm.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Went for a swim.

And it sure felt GREAT!


Swim. Swam. Swam.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Got a call from an unknown residential number while on my way to da train station.

Answered it just cuz I thought it was some future employer.

And it turned out to be a call from Singapore Sports School. And da guy was saying dat my application for da badminton audition is approved.

So here's how da convo went...

Man: I'm calling from Singapore Sports School. You've been selected to come down for da badminton audition you've applied for. Which is happening tomorrow (today) at 3pm.

Me: HUH?? Sports School? Badminton? Wad fuck? I don't even know how to play badminton. Wad da hell are u talking about? I didn't do no applications.

Man: You're Ain Zulkifni, right? Nurul Ain Zulkifni.

Me: DUH.

Man: I have your application here with me. It says here you have THREE years experience in badminton.

Me: (Laughs histerically) Dude. You're sick. I don't play no badminton. I don't know how to play badminton, nor am i interested.

Man: Mm.. do you know how to serve da shuttlecock?

Me: (Laughs SUPER hysterically) Is this some prank or something...

Man: Mm.. do u play any other sports then? Wad about water polo?

Me: (still laughing) My bf plays water polo. Do u want him to come down instead? (laughs & laughs & laughs)

Man: You don't play any other sports?

Me: I do. But I work out more. Not really like into sports THAT much. (still laughing)

Man: Ouh. Do u wanna be a personal trainer then?

... and da convo continues.

Da main point is.. Richard Mark Jensen, I'm so gonna kill you when I see you for playing this prank on me.

ahaha...



So, its April 28th.

And yet, I'm still not bloody.

This is nerve wrecking.

I'm gonna go for a swim tomorrow.

Excessive narcissism is a psychological problem.


Swim. Swam. Swam.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Went online, researched on menstrual irregularities.

Came across this.

What are menstrual irregularities?
Sometimes women have problems in their menstrual cycle—called menstrual irregularities or menstrual problems. They may not get periods, get periods too frequently, have unpredictable menstrual bleeding, or they may have painful periods.

When not caused by pregnancy, menstrual irregularities are usually a sign of a larger condition or problem. There are many conditions that can cause menstrual irregularities.


And one of them is - Amenorrhea

What is amenorrhea?
Amenorrhea is the absence of a menstrual period. Amenorrhea occurs when a woman does not get her period by age 16, or when she stops getting her period for at least three months and is not pregnant.

Amenorrhea is not a disease. Instead, it is a symptom of another condition. Possible causes can include moderate or excessive exercising, eating disorders (such as anorexia nervosa), physical or psychological stress, tumors, and hormonal problems. Women with polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) may also experience amenorrhea.


* Primary amenorrhea is when a young woman has not yet had a period by age 16.
* Secondary amenorrhea describes someone who used to have a regular period but then it stopped for at least three months (this can include pregnancy).

Amenorrhea itself is not a disease, but is usually a symptom of another condition. Depending on that condition, a woman might experience other symptoms, such as headache, vision changes, hair loss, or excess facial hair.

What are the causes of amenorrhea?
Amenorrhea is a symptom of a variety of conditions, ranging from not serious to serious.

Secondary amenorrhea

* This problem is much more common than primary amenorrhea.
* Common causes include many of those listed for primary amenorrhea, as well as pregnancy, certain contraceptives, breastfeeding, mental stress, and certain medications.
* Hormonal problems involving the hypothalamus, pituitary, thyroid, ovary, or adrenal glands can also cause amenorrhea.
* Women who have very low body weight sometimes stop getting their periods as well.
* Women with premature ovarian failure stop getting regular their periods before natural menopause.

What is treatment for amenorrhea?
Treatment for amenorrhea depends on the underlying cause. Sometimes lifestyle changes can help if weight, stress, or physical activity is causing the amenorrhea. Other times medications and oral contraceptives can help the problem.

I think I have this.

I should get it checked.

But, I'm scared.


Hello Harshness.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Oh, yes hunny.

You were harsh.

So, so harsh.

Thanks. I 'really needed' that harshness.

Someone remind me why I'm in a fucking relationship.

When the time comes, remind me that I'm not gonna get married.

Somebody.

Thanks.


Hello Harshness.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

6300 punches.

Poor baby.


6300 punches.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

It was a nice, quiet bday affair in da evening with Carmen, Rino, Syafiq & Yumi.

It was really, really nice.

Thank you guys for the quiet affair.

And they bought me chocolates from Royce, and I've got a Bratz doll!

Yay!

Lurve2 ya'll.

Neh, starbuxx session this week to make it up for my bday.

Heh.


April 19th.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Lurver called me exactly at 12 midnight. When I was seriously in da middle of sleep.

And he sang me a bday song!

And was the first to wish me a happy bday.

Dat marked a wonderful start to my bday.

Thank you, lurver.

AtiqaDEYHH. Thank you for da blackforest.

I lurve, lurve, lurve it!


April 19th.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.











These made a great start to my Friday.

It was his birthday yesterday.

I called him up at 12 midnight, at his side dat is, and sang him a bday song, while he was in da middle of his sleep.

ahah...

And, I've sent him three songs that I sang especially for him.

Yay!


Happy Bday Mr Kang!

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I was reading the card that lurver gave to me on Christmas.

I teared. Again.

Crybaby. I know.

I miss my dearest lurver.


Bleahh.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.



Anybody nice enough to get this for my bday?

ahah...

I'll always get flu days prior to my bday. And it happens every year.

Nice.


Still wanna sleep April 19th away.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I really don't feel like celebrating my birthday.

Anyway, anyhow.

I'd be oh-so-delighted if my BF drops by. Even if it's just for FIVE MINUTES. I will so-so-so make full use of dat FIVE MINUTES.

Keep dreaming Ain.

Yeah. For now, I just really don't feel like doing anything on my birthday.

Let me just sleep it away.


Sleep April 19th away.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Restless, sleepless nights.

Anticipating the unknown.

No, no. It's not about my relationship.

It's me. Whatever that's happening in me. Within me.

I'm afraid.


The Unknown.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.



Cracked me up early in the morning. I think lurver has all the time in the world to do these kinda things.


Let's compare.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

That bed which is 7 feet off the ground and, 4 feet wide, and 7 feet long.

Yes. That bed.


That bed of yours.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Lurver called me last night.

At 2.06am.

Simply because I couldn't sleep.

And he entertained me.

He actually sang me a lullaby (THREE lines only).

ahah...

I lurve you, lurver.


Lullaby.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

He's a meanie.

He likes to mimick whatever I say.

"bumblebee spider..."

"lalalala..."

"and it'll eat you from the inside..."

And he'll just continue doing it cuz he knows it annoys me.

But he's the sweetest thing on earth. He knows that I've not been sleeping right these nights, and so he calls me almost everyday, to check on me.

He'd even call me at night. My night time, that is.

And every night, before I sleep, there's always this text (he seldom text),
"call me if you can't sleep babe."

And I don't.

I'll complain to him of the sleepless night the next morning, but he'd never say anything about it. But, I know he's kind of annoyed. At the fact that I couldn't sleep, and not calling him (so that he can sing me a lullaby from 10,000 miles away).

I just didn't want to be a source of distraction.

That's the last thing I wanna be. To him.

I don't think he knows. But, I hope he understands.


Sleepless Beauty.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Everything is done.

All I need to do is: POST THE PARCEL.


Post it.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I can't sleep right for the past two nights.

And I wonder why.


Let me sleep in peace.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

MSN's such a beeech today.

So, was talking to my FASHIONtard on msn, and he was talking to me about some Marine Corps MCMAP. Not coming from military background, I actually googled it, and got hooked to it. Well, I'm into physical, martial arts stuffs, thus the interest. MCMAP includes ground fighting!

G.A.W.D.

I'm into ground fighting! SERIOUSLY.

And then he called. And I was telling him how interested I am in this MCMAP thing cuz it has ground fighting.

Aingel: We shall get into ground fighting when you're back.

FASHIONtard: (silence)

Aingel: I'm gonna bring you down. Like bring you down, hard. Trust me on that.

FASHIONtard: (chuckles)

Aingel: I know you're gonna go.. 'whatever you say girl.. whatever makes you happy..' but I'm serious. I'll pin you down.

FASHIONtard: Ok girl. Whatever you say. Whatever makes you happy. (laughs)

Aingel: Hello? Hunny? I'm serious?

FASHIONtard: (chuckles) Ok girl. Just don't make me switch to the killer mode.

Aingel: C'mon. You're not gonna kill me. You lurve me too much to kill me.

FASHIONtard: You never know, girl. I might just very well be like that cannibal.

Then I went silent. Cuz I don't remember which cannibal he was talking about.

Aingel: No! No! Oh gawd. You didn't just remind me of that cannibal. Tell me you didn't.

FASHIONtard: (evil laugh)

Aingel: Eww. Yucks. Why do you even remind me of that guy? Ewwwwww. Gawdddddd.

FASHIONtard: (evil laugh) Ok girl. Enjoy the rest of the day filling yourself with cannibalizing thoughts, while I'll go to sleep. (evil laugh)

That was pure evil. Fill the rest of my day with cannibalizing thoughts. While he sleeps.

Fill the rest of my day with cannibalizing thoughts.

Evil, evil FASHIONtard of mine.


Cannibalizing thoughts.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

When my great-grandparents left me, I felt so lost.

I still am, especially on these kind of nights.

How I wish they were still around.

I'd really lurve for them to meet my bf.

I really do.


Why must you leave me all alone in this vicious world?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Hear The Journalists Scream.

The Scandal Hunters.

The Past Which Moulds The Present.

I Am The Only D.va Around.