Take off your shoes, please.

The D.Va

Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.

Oh won't you be mine?


I <3 sleep.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

You gave me my one & only Christmas card.

At the end of da day, the snowman stands alone outside smiling, knowing dat he has brought smile & happiness to everybody.

I'm like da snowman too. But, my smile exists, because of you.

Love,
James

And, dat, is my one & only Christmas card.


And, you were my snowman.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Extracted from Bello., our used-to-be blog.

August 23, 2008 ( 8:25 AM )

Aingel,
Love, i know its gona be awhile before December.
I ask that you wait for me, simply because I love you.
And I want you in my life. And everyday, I will countdown
to the days we meet again. Ever lusting.

Long Distance Relationships are difficult.
I have failed before. But this time, I have total confidence.
Lets keep this post here. So when we feel tired.
we could always check back, so you know..
Im worth waiting for.

Kiss

So, did you eventually go back to this note, and prove to me dat you're worth waiting for?

I'm disappointed in myself.

Really.


I'm such a disappointment.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

<3


ATIQAdeyhh. You have always been da one person who stuck by me. Through da thick and thin dat we've been through so far. You make me laugh when I'm down. You make me mad with your sometimes very irritating acts. You lent me those huge ears of yours when I need to talk in da middle of da night. You are da most special person in my life. And there's nobody in da world dat I care, and lurve, most in this world. You're da best little sister an elder sister could ever wish for. <3


Yumi Pong. Thank you for reminding me dat I'm precious, and dat I deserve better. You knocked some sense into me when I was senseless. You keep me sane. And sanity is wad I need. You know I <3 you.


Carmen Ng. You are, by far, among da friends, dat has heard and seen me crying da most. You are like this tear quencher. Everytime I see you, and I'm emotional, I'll just let my guards down, and just cry. You don't know how special you are, really to me. Cuz I won't just let my guards down to anybody, and start crying. I hate da fact dat I take you for granted at times. Whenever I get mean to you, remind me not to take you for granted. You know I <3 you.


YanYan. Thank you for keeping me rooted to da ground. I can get somehow a lil arrogant, and too egoistic at times. But I know I always have you to keep me rooted to da ground. You know I <3 you.


Leena. You may not always be there when I need you. But, no matter how busy you may be, at those crucial times, you'll always appear. You are da most brutally honest person I know, who can be really mean when I don't need you to be. But it really is for da better of me. I know dat. You know I <3 you.


Fiona Lee. We have not met for ages. Somehow, you are always there for me. You are ALWAYS there. And your laughter is like a remedy to me. NO matter how sad, or down, hearing you laugh will always brighten up my day. And thanks for dat gross link yesterday. =.= You know I <3 you.


Syafrin Ardi. You are like an elder brother, whom I can count on. But, you always come in at da wrong time. I know I take you for granted. But, you know I <3 you.


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James Kang. You introduced me to something called lurve. You made me believe every single honeyed words you say. You made all these walls around me tumble down. You made me give my all to you. You made me fall deeply in lurve with you. You made me think of you day, and night. You made me do things I'd never think I would do in a million years. You made me compromise in every way impossible. You are da one who can make me feel like I'm on top of da world. You are also da one who can make me feel da shittiest ever. You are da most bittersweet person I've ever met. You still take me for granted, even though we are no more. When will you ever treat me da way I'm supposed to be treated? But, you know, I <3 you.



I still do.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

"It just bothers me because you never really do know if he cares or if it’s just a facade. He could tell you that you’re his “only one,” but how do you know he won’t turn around and say it to someone else too? Relationships are hard and a lot of people say that it doesn’t work without trust, and yeah, that’s true. But I think in order to be completely head over heels, you have to be willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall."

"Everyone says love hurts. When actually love doesn’t hurt. Love didn’t leave you for some other girl. It didn’t cheat on you, nor did it break your heart. So stop blaming love for once and start blaming the asshole that treated you like shit and gave you up."

"Don't feel stupid for missing him, even if he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories and you’re always going to miss them. Don’t try to replace him, cause you won’t. Just get through each day and eventually it’ll get better. i promise. eventually someone will come into your life and whether or not you realize it, they’re going to be something special to you. so don’t throw yourself at every
guy you see, trying to replace him, or at least dull the memories. cause you’re only going to make yourself see how hard he is to replace. Someone better will eventually come along."


I was dat stupid one.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Yumi gave me a link.

"Missing someone isn’t about how long it’s been since you’ve seen them last or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something, and you wish that they were right there with you."

Taken from http://eletheowl.tumblr.com/page/4.

She's awesome.


I'm still trying.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

You called me.

You were drunk.

You said some stupid things.


You shouldn't have drank dat bottle of wine.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Reading those posts you posted on our blog, tears just keep falling.

And it streams like a never ending river.

I miss calling you hunny. I miss it when you call me baby girl. When you say dat I'm your Aingel.

I miss your sleep talks. I miss teasing you by pulling out your leg hair.

I miss those times when I get into your arms when it gets too cold.

I miss your warmth.

I miss texting you every morning. I miss those late night calls before I go to sleep.

I miss you.

I miss you.

And, I miss you.

Why do I miss you so much?

Why do I lurve you so much?


Somebody help me.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

I dreamed of you last night.

It's really depressing.


Detox, dats B.S.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

And da chapter closes.

**

I'm numb.


Numb me.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

And so, I got home from Tioman yesterday night.

Nature has never been dat beautiful to me.

Da trip to Tioman has open up my eyes to da beauty of nature, and how important it is to conserve, and protect mother earth.


**

I lurve my bf. I really do.

But people are telling me to let go, slowly. Cuz we all know, our relationship is not gonna last.

A break-up is inevitable. It might not be now. But it'll happen, definitely.

And I read his inbox. It broke my heart, just a lil bit, cuz he appreciates da care and concern this girl gives him. And he tells me, his girlfriend, that he does not need me to care for him.

Yes. It hurts. Just a lil bit.

I'm learning to let go. Lil by lil.

And it's hard. It's really, really hard.

Why did I fall in so deep this time round?

Why?


Why?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

Hear The Journalists Scream.

The Scandal Hunters.

The Past Which Moulds The Present.

I Am The Only D.va Around.