.AinZulkifni.

2010-11-13T01:26:00.001+08:00

Au Naturale.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-10-20T16:21:00.000+08:00

WORLD DOMINATION.

LOL.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-10-16T18:37:00.001+08:00

And yes, I teared.

Said I wasn't gonna, but I did.

It's really sad :(

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-10-08T16:00:00.000+08:00

Overwhelmed with a surge of emotions.

Let my walls come down.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-09-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

I need to adopt a new hairstyle.

Mine is a slab of shapeless hair right now.

This?

All da hairstylists, and make-up artists I know are in favour of this.

But should I?

A tad too short?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-09-13T23:37:00.000+08:00

'Don't let the "honeys" and the "babys" fool you. His sweet nothings are exactly that. They are much easier to say than "I'm just not that into you." Remember, actions speak louder than, "There's no cell reception where I am right now."'

- He's Just Not That Into You

He's Just Not That Into You, Woman.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-09-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

April 19 Birthday Astrology

An Aries born on April 19 is possessed with a deep sense of their own spiritual significance and has the ability to do great things. They have marked psychic ability. Whether or not they choose to make use of this talent, it serves as a method for them to make a majority of their intellectual decisions.

Friends and Lovers

April 19 people have a way of channeling their experiences and relationships so they themselves can grow spiritually and intellectually. Love is a transcendent experience for them. Although they may appear to choose lovers or mates who are wrong for them, they are actually responding to a profound inner need to learn a spiritual truth.

Children and Family

People born on April 19 understand their brothers, sisters, and their parents in ways that would be impossible for anyone else to comprehend. As parents, they have a great tolerance and sensitivity. Even though they may expect their children to mirror their own opinions and values, they will never imperil their relationship when differences arise.

Health

Because of their incredible sensitivity, those born on April 19 need to adopt a healthy and active lifestyle. Regular exercise is a good way for people born on this date to expel their nervous energy and relieve tension.

Career and Finances

April 19 individuals often take a circuitous path toward their eventual career destination. Because they are sensitive to the influences of their youth, these people often choose a career based on their respect for an inspirational teacher or mentor. They hold financial security dear where their families are concerned, since they are dedicated to making their child's life secure.

Dreams and Goals

April 19 individuals seek unification between the spiritual and secular elements of their nature. They are not great planners, but they do have a natural instinct about what choices to make and when to make them. The decisions they make may seem curious to others, but they never question their intuition.

You should embrace: Second choices, a love of literature, gentleness

You should avoid: Putting things off, being disorganized, alibiing failure

Late Night Request.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-09-06T18:27:00.002+08:00

This is da point where you'll stray.

Always.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-08-30T23:24:00.002+08:00

Well, I'm just an outlet.

Just an outlet.

Has always been.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-08-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

"Let's go all the way tonight
No regrets, just love
We can dance until we die
You and I
We'll be young forever"

- Teenage Dream, Katy Perry

Let's all smile.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-08-17T00:58:00.002+08:00

This is a haunting tune.

Repeat.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-08-07T02:27:00.000+08:00

I've been single for exactly a year today.

AWESOME.

Da single life, da simple life.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-08-01T16:11:00.000+08:00

Wad this guy did on Real World DC was unacceptable.

"I just didn't wanna hurt you anymore."

Really boy, dats an overrated excuse.

You wouldn't do wadeva u did in da 1st place if u didn't even wanna hurt her.

Guys like this.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-07-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

If perfect is what you're searching for, then just stay the same

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Sing this to me.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-07-27T21:29:00.000+08:00

No words.

-

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-07-27T10:23:00.000+08:00

More than 66% of divorce cases in da Malay community last year was initiated by women.

All i have to say, treat your woman right, MEN.

Blame da MEN.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-07-19T00:51:00.000+08:00

Joseph Gordon-Levitt is so bloody hawt in Inception.

**

Not felt this way for a long time.

But, oh well.

Sleep.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-07-16T10:23:00.000+08:00

Can't believe this, but I actually miss going to Marina Bay Sands.

And I miss da crew I worked with.

**

When someone says he/she will be in touch, you can't help, but be skeptical.

It's probably said just out of courtesy.

Dat has always been da case.

Inception.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-07-13T18:05:00.000+08:00

Sleep is such a luxury.

AND SPAIN WON DA WORLD CUP!

I TOLD YOU SO WORLD!

Viva Espanol.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-07-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

VIVA SPAIN!

I can smell victory.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-06-27T16:26:00.002+08:00

Spain's gonna meet Portugal on July 30th.

Oh no~

I'm supporting both.

Villa.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-06-18T00:41:00.000+08:00

Casilla's bloody moment of stupidity still makes me fume with anger.

Fabregas, save Spain.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-06-15T01:55:00.000+08:00

I have a thing for soccer players.

Always have.

Cesc Fabregas.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-06-09T01:37:00.000+08:00

On contrary to what Savannah Lynn Curtis said in Dear John, chivalry is long gone, my friends.

Guys, and their drama/s.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-06-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

"A wise girl kisses but doesn't love, listens but doesn't believe, and leaves before she is left." -Marilyn Monroe.

I'd like to call it beauty.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-05-19T12:10:00.000+08:00

All my gffs are seeing someone.

I'm da only single left.

Sadness.

Declaration of Dependence.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-05-16T18:34:00.000+08:00

I need to have my own place.

I should've learnt to be more independent da moment my late great-grandparents passed away.

Never ending arguments.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-05-09T20:59:00.000+08:00

I might not talk back, or retaliate.

Dat doesn't mean my patience has no limits.

If I were to shoot myself in da head, you're da sole cause.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-05-07T21:45:00.002+08:00

-

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-05-04T22:16:00.000+08:00

There were two dudes in da train who took out their sketch books, and drew me out. Pretty cool.

The hardest question - why?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-28T15:49:00.003+08:00

"Beautiful girls all over the world, I could be chasing
But my time would be wasted, they got nothing on you, baby
Nothing on you, baby
They might say hi, and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry, about what they say
'Cause they got nothing on you, baby"

All I want is a serious, stable relationship.

A monogamous one. Because I really do believe in monogamy.

I sound funny when I'm serious.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-27T14:14:00.000+08:00

I wouldn't say Shutter Island is a bad movie.

It is Scorsese's least brilliant, yet.

The twists were well thought of, I'd say. It got me thinking. A lot.

But dat could also be due to me watching it with a sleepy state of mind, and I couldn't digest everything there, and then.

Well, all in all, don't watch Shutter Island when you're sleepy.

Leonardo DiCaprio lost his mojo.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-20T20:08:00.000+08:00

21st was pretty awesome.

Cuz there was a mystery about da blood stains on my white top at da end of da day, with us not knowing where it came from, nor how it got there.

And it stays a mystery.

Bloody stains.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-18T22:42:00.000+08:00

Turning TWENTY-ONE, I get a lot of questions, like, for example,

"Why are you still single?"

or

"Are you still interested in boys? Or..."

or

"Do you need help in finding a partner? Cuz if you do..."

... and da list goes on.

So how do u tackle these very, VERY AWKWARD questions?

LAUGH IT OFF, AND THEN COMPLIMENT DA PERSON ASKING DA QUESTION, AND ASK EM ANOTHER QUESTION.

For example, "(laughs), you know you've got really good skin. I've been wanting to ask you, wads ur beauty regime like?" or "(laughs) you know you've got a really, really (emphasis) good figure. How do u keep this killer body amidst dat hectic schedule of yours?"

It'd totally distract em from da initial question they asked.

Seriously.

Try it.

No kidding.

I'm turning 21 tomorrow.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-17T10:36:00.002+08:00

Birthday Sex.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-10T10:34:00.000+08:00

WARNING: THIS IS A SELF-INDULGENT POST. IF YOU HAVE AN ALLERGY TO EXCESS NARCISSISM PLEASE STAY AWAY.

Your beautiful eyes seems to entice me in every way. It haunts me in my sleep, in my wake. I yearn for those eyes to look at me in this demeanor that I've never ever thought existed. It speaks to me. In unspoken words.

The scent of you drives me insane, as it lingers, even long after your disappearance.

These fingers, they drive along the contours of that magnificent body. It leaves me breathless. It leaves me wanting more. Just a touch is not enough. Never enough.

Note: I think if a guy ever tells me this, I'd freak out. Sounds like a psycho to me. However, if someone like Johnny says this, I'll totally marry him in a beat. LOL.

I write nonsense when I'm sleep deprived.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

I want my short hair back.

And then, when I have short hair, I'll go, I want my long hair back.

Short hair. Long hair. Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.Short hair. Long hair.

I shall decide in my sleep.

Hairy dilemma.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-04-03T10:32:00.000+08:00

I have every right to ignore you, and choose never to talk to you again.

After wad you've put me through, and da way you treated me, as though I'm some worthless trash.

So now move on with dat new girl of yours, and get a life.

And, GROW SOME BALLS.

LITERALLY.

You just have to piss me in every single way, don't you?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-03-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

Somehow my blog seems so dead.

It's not really dead actually.

It's just dat I don't update it as regularly.

I really dont have to explain why, and I don't know why I am explaining.

Well, I'm just sleepy. I don't make sense when I'm sleepy.

U know, like now?

I should stop rambling on.

REALLY.

Let's all sleep.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-03-10T21:52:00.002+08:00

I lurve her. Especially with this do. And yes, this is da sexiest I've seen her.

Bloody Sleepy.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-02-26T23:14:00.001+08:00

Caseyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ *melts

LURRRRVVVEEEEE.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-02-18T23:31:00.000+08:00

Beautiful lady, beautiful voice, beautiful song.

Gravity.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-02-12T21:56:00.000+08:00

Got these through Milan Kundera's Laughable Loves.

"The greatest misfortune for a man is a happy marriage; he hasn't the slightest hope of a divorce."

"But love is precisely dat which is, illogical."

"At the end of true love is death, and only the love that ends in death, is love."

"I think a man and a woman love each other all the more when they don't live together and when they know about each other only that the exist, and when they are grateful to each other for the fact they exist and that they know they exist. And that alone is enough for their happiness."

"A man who lies can't be respected by any woman."

Laughable Loves.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-02-04T23:00:00.001+08:00

Ain Zulkifni needs to get back into da dating scene.

But, she is too lazy to do so.

And she's not complaining.

I'm too lazy to go on dates.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-01-31T00:32:00.002+08:00

Still as cute.

Still as cute.

Still as cute.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-01-28T21:17:00.000+08:00

I burnt myself with da curling tong.

And da skin came off.

OUCH.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-01-25T22:02:00.000+08:00

A few days ago, I saw this cute guy.

A skater guy.

He's got sleeves, and more tattoos over da legs.

We exchanged smiles, and glances.

Yes, I haven't been dating.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-01-16T21:11:00.000+08:00

This is still vivid in this brain of mine.

I was going to da bathroom to answer the call of nature. And so, my left hand was on da toilet door, and I felt something slimy. I looked at it, and my mind didn't respond till like five seconds later.

I ran out of da toilet, screaming, and shouting like I've just lost my mind. I came into my mum's room, greeted by faces of shock. I was still screaming then. Screaming at da top of my lungs. And my eyes got teary. Eventually, tears streamed upon my face.

FUCKING LIZARD.

I'LL SEE DAT YOUR FUCKING SPECIES IS BANISHED FROM DA FACE OF EARTH.

PERISH. POOF!

FUCK YOU LIZARD.

I HATE YOU. EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU.

I FUCKING HATE LIZARDS.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-01-11T22:14:00.004+08:00

If I fell in love with you
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand
'cause I've been in love before
And I found that love was more
Than just holding hands

If I give my heart to you
I must be sure
From the very start
That you would love me more than her

If I trust in you, oh please
Don't run and hide
If I love you too, oh please
Don't hurt my pride like her
'cause I couldn't stand the pain
And I would be sad if our new love was in vain

So I hope you see that I
Would love to love you
And that she will cry
When she learns we are two
cause I couldn't stand the pain
and I would be sad if our new love was in vain

so I hope you see that I
would love to love you
and that she will cry when she learns we are two.

If I fell in love with you.

- If I Fell, The Beatles

If.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-01-09T10:36:00.002+08:00

Happy couples.

Bleargh~ (cue to puke).

Puke it all out.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2010-01-03T00:10:00.000+08:00

I gave in.

I succumb to it.

I vowed to never do it again. But I did.

I'm so disappointed. In myself.

Red knuckles. Throat hurts.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-12-31T01:02:00.002+08:00

A warning sign
I missed the good part then I realised
That I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
That I miss you so

A warning sign
You came back to haunt me and I realised
That you were an island and I passed you by
When you were an island to discover
Come on in, I've got to tell you what a state I'm in
I've got to tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

And the truth is
I miss you
Yeah the truth is
I miss you so
And I'm tired
I should not have let you go

So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms

- Coldplay, Warning Sign.

Parachutes.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-12-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

Oh, we're sinking like stones,
All that we fought for,
All those places we've gone,
All of us are done for.

We live in a beautiful world,
Yeah we do, yeah we do,
We live in a beautiful world,
Oh, we're sinking like stones,
All that we fought for,
All those places we've gone,
All of us are done for.

We live in a beautiful world,
Yeah we do, yeah we do,
We live in a beautiful world.

Oh, all that I know,
There's nothing here to run from,
And there, everybody here's got somebody to lean on.

-Coldplay, Don't Panic.

Romanian girl is pestering me.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-12-22T20:53:00.002+08:00

It's safe to say so.

Motions.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-12-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

There's just too many things dat had happened in da past few weeks.

From da pussy jamming studio guy, to getting crazy smashed, to da stalker Romanian gay girl, to breaking a guppy's heart (dude, he's 17, so he's a guppy), to da bragging ex bf (get a life, seriously), to getting da flu bug, and 'overdosing' on da flu pills (Carmen overreacted), to Wesley getting me a new bikini all da way from Bali, to da fucking pervert 'grandfather' in da train (he's prolly around 60+, 70), to getting stalked at a mall, and so on.

Too lazy to blog in detail.

But you get my point.

And Jack White is SEX.

He cuts like a buffalo.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-12-12T14:57:00.000+08:00

I was totally annoyed last night.

By you.

Brag is all you do.

Fucking MCP.

MCP.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-12-07T10:40:00.000+08:00

Insane. Deranged. Smashed.

Dats Saturday for you.

And thank you Saturday for making Sunday unproductive.

Was still feeling light-headed yesterday cuz of you, Saturday.

I was super smashed on Saturday.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-25T12:49:00.002+08:00

Let's party, and get wasted.

Wasted, is wad I need.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-23T10:39:00.002+08:00

LUKAS ROSSI IS FREAKING FOLLOWING ME ON TWITTER.

o.O

Weird People.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-20T13:58:00.000+08:00

Da dream was so fucking surreal.

It messed my sleep for a good couple of hours, right after I jolted out from da disastrous dream.

I'm telling you. It's so fucking surreal.

Like FUCKING SURREAL.

Ohh emm gee.

I'm still speechless, and dumb-founded whenever I re-think of da dream.

FML.

Wad a dream.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

Two full day shoots, I'm really, really sore.

My shoulders, and arms ache from all those heavy wardrobe bags. Which were basically twice my size.

And so, I went for my brazillian appointment today, right after shoot.

And.. I FELL ASLEEP THROUGHOUT DA WHOLE APPOINTMENT!

I just LOL-ed when da 'waxer' told me about it cuz it was uber hillarious, really.

I am dat tired.

I'll still be your bad romance.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-11T22:12:00.002+08:00

Yeah baby, I'll be your bad romance.

Make me your bad romance.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-08T14:36:00.000+08:00

Why are girls talking to me.

I mean like GIRLS~

It's weird.

YouKnowImNotIntoGirls.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-07T14:14:00.000+08:00

Why do I keep feeling hungry?

I mean like seriously.

I want some chocolate.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-05T18:48:00.002+08:00

I'm afraid of da day, when a guy will propose to me.

I hope dat day will never come.

Like seriously.

Imscaredofmarriges.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-11-04T00:20:00.000+08:00

You know wad?

I think I like you.

:)

All smiles.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-10-19T20:17:00.000+08:00

OHH EMM GEE SPENCER PRATT IS FOLLOWING ME ON TWITTER!

I'll be happier if Audrina Patridge, or Brody Jenner follows me.

I'm crazily smiling to myself.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-10-06T14:22:00.001+08:00

It's da feeling of satisfaction when one inflict pain upon oneself.

*
**

Had pancakes for dinner.

Reminded me of yours.

Deplete you from my memory.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-09-27T11:26:00.000+08:00

Dat is da third, and last chance.

Now, GET DA FUCK OUT OF MY LIFE.

You just proved my point right - every single guy in this world, are such jerks & assholes.

FUCK YOU & FUCK YOUR SWEET NOTHINGS.

I'm just this stupid girl who keeps taking you back. And I know dat I'll always get heart-broken after every single time.

I'm just a ____ to you.

A fucking ____.

I never learn.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-09-14T23:48:00.000+08:00

You called me.

You started asking me stupid questions, which were of no basis, nor use.

And you demanded an answer.

Wad a difference would my answer mean, really?

You had me, and you decided to treat me like trash, so why da questions? Why all these regrets?

You told me to move on when you broke my heart, and made me cry in front of those passerby's at da beach.

So wad else is there really?

You already broke my heart in a million gazillion pieces.

You think it's dat easy to put it all back together, and make everything all right?

"Will you say yes, if I want you back?"

And I answered, "No. It's true when you said dat we're still young, and dat we should venture."

"I just felt my heart break."

Oh really? Then did you know how much u fucking made my heart break when you told me it's da end of us? Did you even care?

You don't even know how many nights I actually cried over you. It's da fucking first time I cried for a guy. I felt like a loser.

You said you're always sure about da decisions you make. I guess you're not for this one. Da fact is, you're just a confused soul, boy.

You're a confused soul, boy.

But, yes, I lurved you.

I lurvED you.

And you say you're gonna disappear from my life now.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-09-11T07:39:00.000+08:00

You called me.

You were emo.

You called me by some other name, by accident.

Or is it?

You need to keep your life straight.

I saw through you last night.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-09-03T21:43:00.000+08:00

A few weeks back, I dreamed of Embah. He brought me to buy some cloth.

I woke up, feeling weird.

A few days back, I called Mami Jun.

And she told me of da condition of da grave.

I understand now. Da dream, he was trying to tell me something.

I dreamed of Maknek, too.

And in dat dream, she was really mad at me. She didn't say nothing. But, I knew, she was mad at me. REAL mad.

I feel like da most unfilial, useless, and worthless great-granddaughter in da whole wide world, really.

I've only visited Embah's grave once. And I have yet to visit Maknek's.

Tell me. How unfilial, and worthless, of a great-granddaughter I am.

I miss you Embah, Maknek.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-09-01T20:05:00.000+08:00

I can't bear to sacrifice family time.

They are my everything.

How?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-29T10:02:00.002+08:00

Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.

Oh won't you be mine?

I <3 sleep.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-23T22:09:00.000+08:00

You gave me my one & only Christmas card.

At the end of da day, the snowman stands alone outside smiling, knowing dat he has brought smile & happiness to everybody.

I'm like da snowman too. But, my smile exists, because of you.

Love,
James

And, dat, is my one & only Christmas card.

And, you were my snowman.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-22T14:15:00.001+08:00

Extracted from Bello., our used-to-be blog.

August 23, 2008 ( 8:25 AM )

Aingel,
Love, i know its gona be awhile before December.
I ask that you wait for me, simply because I love you.
And I want you in my life. And everyday, I will countdown
to the days we meet again. Ever lusting.

Long Distance Relationships are difficult.
I have failed before. But this time, I have total confidence.
Lets keep this post here. So when we feel tired.
we could always check back, so you know..
Im worth waiting for.

Kiss

So, did you eventually go back to this note, and prove to me dat you're worth waiting for?

I'm disappointed in myself.

Really.

I'm such a disappointment.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-20T11:34:00.007+08:00

<3

ATIQAdeyhh. You have always been da one person who stuck by me. Through da thick and thin dat we've been through so far. You make me laugh when I'm down. You make me mad with your sometimes very irritating acts. You lent me those huge ears of yours when I need to talk in da middle of da night. You are da most special person in my life. And there's nobody in da world dat I care, and lurve, most in this world. You're da best little sister an elder sister could ever wish for. <3

Yumi Pong. Thank you for reminding me dat I'm precious, and dat I deserve better. You knocked some sense into me when I was senseless. You keep me sane. And sanity is wad I need. You know I <3 you.

Carmen Ng. You are, by far, among da friends, dat has heard and seen me crying da most. You are like this tear quencher. Everytime I see you, and I'm emotional, I'll just let my guards down, and just cry. You don't know how special you are, really to me. Cuz I won't just let my guards down to anybody, and start crying. I hate da fact dat I take you for granted at times. Whenever I get mean to you, remind me not to take you for granted. You know I <3 you.

YanYan. Thank you for keeping me rooted to da ground. I can get somehow a lil arrogant, and too egoistic at times. But I know I always have you to keep me rooted to da ground. You know I <3 you.

Leena. You may not always be there when I need you. But, no matter how busy you may be, at those crucial times, you'll always appear. You are da most brutally honest person I know, who can be really mean when I don't need you to be. But it really is for da better of me. I know dat. You know I <3 you.

Fiona Lee. We have not met for ages. Somehow, you are always there for me. You are ALWAYS there. And your laughter is like a remedy to me. NO matter how sad, or down, hearing you laugh will always brighten up my day. And thanks for dat gross link yesterday. =.= You know I <3 you.

Syafrin Ardi. You are like an elder brother, whom I can count on. But, you always come in at da wrong time. I know I take you for granted. But, you know I <3 you.

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James Kang. You introduced me to something called lurve. You made me believe every single honeyed words you say. You made all these walls around me tumble down. You made me give my all to you. You made me fall deeply in lurve with you. You made me think of you day, and night. You made me do things I'd never think I would do in a million years. You made me compromise in every way impossible. You are da one who can make me feel like I'm on top of da world. You are also da one who can make me feel da shittiest ever. You are da most bittersweet person I've ever met. You still take me for granted, even though we are no more. When will you ever treat me da way I'm supposed to be treated? But, you know, ~~I <3 you~~.

I still do.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-18T20:11:00.002+08:00

"It just bothers me because you never really do know if he cares or if it’s just a facade. He could tell you that you’re his “only one,” but how do you know he won’t turn around and say it to someone else too? Relationships are hard and a lot of people say that it doesn’t work without trust, and yeah, that’s true. But I think in order to be completely head over heels, you have to be willing to be stupid. You have to be willing to fall."

"Everyone says love hurts. When actually love doesn’t hurt. Love didn’t leave you for some other girl. It didn’t cheat on you, nor did it break your heart. So stop blaming love for once and start blaming the asshole that treated you like shit and gave you up."

"Don't feel stupid for missing him, even if he treated you like shit. You still had happy memories and you’re always going to miss them. Don’t try to replace him, cause you won’t. Just get through each day and eventually it’ll get better. i promise. eventually someone will come into your life and whether or not you realize it, they’re going to be something special to you. so don’t throw yourself at every
guy you see, trying to replace him, or at least dull the memories. cause you’re only going to make yourself see how hard he is to replace. Someone better will eventually come along."

I was dat stupid one.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-18T14:18:00.000+08:00

Yumi gave me a link.

"Missing someone isn’t about how long it’s been since you’ve seen them last or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something, and you wish that they were right there with you."

Taken from http://eletheowl.tumblr.com/page/4.

She's awesome.

I'm still trying.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-15T13:24:00.001+08:00

You called me.

You were drunk.

You said some stupid things.

You shouldn't have drank dat bottle of wine.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-09T21:40:00.000+08:00

Reading those posts you posted on our blog, tears just keep falling.

And it streams like a never ending river.

I miss calling you hunny. I miss it when you call me baby girl. When you say dat I'm your Aingel.

I miss your sleep talks. I miss teasing you by pulling out your leg hair.

I miss those times when I get into your arms when it gets too cold.

I miss your warmth.

I miss texting you every morning. I miss those late night calls before I go to sleep.

I miss you.

I miss you.

And, I miss you.

Why do I miss you so much?

Why do I lurve you so much?

Somebody help me.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-08T13:43:00.002+08:00

I dreamed of you last night.

It's really depressing.

Detox, dats B.S.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-08T01:05:00.000+08:00

And da chapter closes.

**

I'm numb.

Numb me.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-08-03T19:09:00.000+08:00

And so, I got home from Tioman yesterday night.

Nature has never been dat beautiful to me.

Da trip to Tioman has open up my eyes to da beauty of nature, and how important it is to conserve, and protect mother earth.

**

I lurve my bf. I really do.

But people are telling me to let go, slowly. Cuz we all know, our relationship is not gonna last.

A break-up is inevitable. It might not be now. But it'll happen, definitely.

And I read his inbox. It broke my heart, just a lil bit, cuz he appreciates da care and concern this girl gives him. And he tells me, his girlfriend, that he does not need me to care for him.

Yes. It hurts. Just a lil bit.

I'm learning to let go. Lil by lil.

And it's hard. It's really, really hard.

Why did I fall in so deep this time round?

Why?

Why?

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-27T13:14:00.001+08:00

All I'm asking from you, is just to treat me right.

Just treat me right.

Is that too much to ask from you?

Oh yes. I totally forgot.

YOU DON'T CARE.

Yes. You totally don't care.

Wadeva you said in da past, dat was just sweet nothings.

Yup, I get it.

You're such a fool, Ain.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-23T23:20:00.002+08:00

Baby, maybe you don't realise.

You've been taking me for granted these days.

And have I ever complained? Ever?

I'm trying to be patient. Really.

But my patience is wearing thin.

I'm feeling really underappreciated.

Why do you take me for granted?

I need Johnny Depp's lurving.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-20T19:18:00.001+08:00

And so it's our eleventh month anniversary today.

And he really don't remember.

And he's brewing beer on our eleventh anniversary.

How nice.

Guys & Dates.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-18T23:52:00.001+08:00

Time well spent with Carms & Wes.

And lurver, you're schweet when you're in a great mood.

Can you be in a great mood everyday?

GoblinNeedsSleep.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-14T11:14:00.002+08:00

Today is a much, much better day.

Dinner with lurver & his family later. And I'm nervous. Cuz his dad will be there. I'm always nervous when his dad's there. Can I don't?

Gawd.

Nervous wreck.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

Ohh Emm Geeeeee.

I cannot stop eating.

Dat's BADDDDDDDDDDDDD.

STOP EATINGGGGGGGG.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-09T13:48:00.001+08:00

I had an awesome time making lurver watch WWE RAW with me.

I know he lurves it.

BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

Steroid Clowns.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-08T00:51:00.001+08:00

I mean it whenever I say those three words.

And, lurver, yes, I lurve you.

DaCabRide.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-06T13:08:00.001+08:00

He lurves checking my phone. Especially my inbox. I don't know if I'm complaining.

=.=

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-07-02T10:46:00.001+08:00

I dislike J.

Carmen, we should stop stalking. Really.

Bottomline: I dislike J.

I shall not use da H word.

I dislike J.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-06-29T23:53:00.002+08:00

Was in da cab, on our way home.

Lurver had to sneeze. A very loud and strong sneeze.

And as he sneezes, da uncle rolled down da window, and tried to keep calm, tryng not to show dat he's paranoid.

He sneezed another time. This time, he rolled da window lower, and longer.

I couldn't stop laughing. Really.

People of da world, go watch I Love You, Man.

I Love You, Man is awesome.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-06-29T15:51:00.002+08:00

Talked to Mum regarding some relationship issues.

"It's so easy. Both of you are so egoistic. Put your egos aside. Both of you are so stubborn. Especially you. Give in sometimes. Don't expect him to give in all da time. And talk. Constantly."

Thanks Mum.

Ego-centric.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-06-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

I'd rather watch three hours of Harper's Island than Transformers: Revenge of the Fallen.

Plan you holiday at Harper's Island.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-06-26T11:47:00.000+08:00

I <3 you, Michael Jackson.

I still can't believe dat you're gone.

I <3 MJ.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-06-25T11:25:00.002+08:00

We have a movie date tomorrow.

I shall speak my mind. Whatever dat has been bothering me about you, me, US.

I shall do it after our movie date.

And please answer with utmost honesty. Da truth might hurt. At least, it'd spare me of da agony dat I'm facing every night, giving me endless sleepless nights.

And baby, I'm not looking for perfection. You don't have to be perfect. I don't want you to be perfect. I lurve you for who you are, every single flaw dat makes you perfect in my eyes.

You don't have to promise me anything. I don't want you to promise me anything. Cuz I know I can't promise you anything either.

I know sometimes it's gonna rain. But baby, can we make up now cuz I can't sleep through the pain.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.

2009-06-24T10:20:00.000+08:00

There must be a reason why you're acting like an ass.

Spare me the agony please.

Lotza Lurrrve,
.AinZulkifni.